i have alot of shit going on right now... and i hope it all turns out okay... i'll be okay either way, but for my sake, i hope that it all turns out well. for his sake as well. i feel secretive... like there are things i can't tell anyone. and i'm so used to being able to tell anyone anything, it's weird for me. my life has kind of always been an open book, if anyone wanted to know something, i'd tell them. and it just.... it perplexes me i guess.